yours truly

So this week I was going to tell you all about my love/hate relationship with my job.  However, I've had a heavy heart and that will have to wait till next week, or possibly later this week.  Hope your bubble didn't just burst...

Also.. I'm still working on a creative title for this little segment... so continue to bear with me.

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This past week has been full of ups and downs.  Thursday I was able to have one of the best worship experiences I've had in a long time.  Saturday was a rough night with one of my friends.  Sunday morning started off with a GREAT sermon by Pastor Jim about showing grace to those around us.  But, right after church things started going downhill again.

Then this coming week I have things to look forward to: I'm going on my first "date" since the divorce  ((Calm down aunties...)).  I get to hang out with some amazing friends who I rarely get to see.  I have a 4 day week (woohoo!!).

So why is it that when you feel on top of the world, when you're living 100% for God, Satan has to step in and push his way into your life harder than ever?  Saturday night was rough for me.  Satan had to push back into my life and stir up a lot of feelings and hurt from my past.  But I stayed strong.  I prayed continuously... probably more than I have in a long time.  And I have Bekah Williams to thank for this reminder:

"Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man that takes refuge in Him."

Psalm 34:8

 I was at a loss for words.  I didn't know what to say or think to move forward again because I was so focused on the hurt from my past.  But God is good and he answered my prayers with an amazing sermon Sunday morning.  Show grace.  All I needed to say were 3 little words and let all the rest go.  I forgive you.

Even now as I'm writing this, I now realize I need to say those 3 words to more than this one person.  I need to let go of all the hurt and look forward.  Just as Pastor Jim said:

"Grace watches life through the windshield and not the rearview mirror..."

So here's to looking through the windshield...

 Cheers.